Sunday, October 28, 2007

Grief

The last few days have been a nightmare... I truly feel as though my closest, most long-lasting friendship is ending - the one I have with food. I'm committed to this surgery, I know it's the only way I can survive, but I'm sad at the thought that I will have a different relationship with food from now on. SO many times I have shared with food, both good and bad. It will never be the same again, and that's good, that's healthy, but I feel bereft. It's weird and pathetic. I need to look at food as the kind of toxic friend that sometimes needs to be kicked out of our lives...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Lil!!

Hope you're recovering well!

Anna :)

(fellow gorgeous Jon patient)

Anonymous said...

Lil, I completely relate to your post. Although I couldn't admit it to anyone, I hated the thought that my relationship with food would have to change after banding. The good news is I am 8 weeks banded today and 22 kilos down. I can still eat everything but the band helps me to eat in moderation - a new concept lol! Stay strong, I love reading your blog. Your honesty and insightful comments are inspiring. You seem an amazing lady and you will triumph!

Last Chance Lil said...

Thanks for the comment - I'm relieved that I'm not alone in my twisted relationship with food lol! Really appreciate the feedback and support (((: